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major panic attacks today downtown – clonazepam panic attack not like Xanax – feels like brain damage, blood pressure feeling going up and down, tectonic plates in the head, impending seizure… only one thing I could do – take a 1.2 (o.5) Rivotril and a Xanax – terrifying stuff – had to hid in pipe room of building; 3 hours later I need another fix… my withdrawal seems to have gotten worse last week, i see my doc. tomorrow – I pray for instruction WHEN to take drugs, WHAT kind of drugs and DOSE of drugs – maybe a referral. one thing is sure about psychiatric emergencies – better to be stoned like a vegetable than flying like out of control terrorized thing. Squiggles
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> major panic attacks today downtown – clonazepam > panic attack not like Xanax – feels like brain damage, > blood pressure feeling going up and down, tectonic > plates in the head, impending seizure… only one > thing I could do – take a 1.2 (o.5) Rivotril and a > Xanax – terrifying stuff – had to hid in pipe room of > building; > 3 hours later I need another fix… my withdrawal > seems to have gotten worse last week, i see my doc. > tomorrow – I pray for instruction WHEN to take drugs, > WHAT kind of drugs and DOSE of drugs – maybe a referral.
Oh Squiggles that sounds just awful.. > one thing is sure about psychiatric emergencies – > better to be stoned like a vegetable than flying like > out of control terrorized thing.
hey..whatever gets you through the night (((((((((((Squiggles))))))))))) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Squiggles
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> Oh Squiggles that sounds just awful.. > one thing is sure about psychiatric emergencies – > better to be stoned like a vegetable than flying like > out of control terrorized thing. > hey..whatever gets you through the night > (((((((((((Squiggles))))))))))) > Squiggles
thanks Bob – I wish I were normal 
I can’t show my face in public without anticipation of the next moment. I came home crying – felt like i had just been through a hold-up, a rape, and a storm – stress wise. tx a lot. Squiggles
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Oh Squiggles that sounds just awful.. > > one thing is sure about psychiatric emergencies – > > better to be stoned like a vegetable than flying like > > out of control terrorized thing. > hey..whatever gets you through the night > (((((((((((Squiggles))))))))))) > > Squiggles > thanks Bob – I wish I were normal > I can’t show my face in public without > anticipation of the next moment.
thats sort of saps away away you the fear and anxiety of it happening suddenly again.. I came > home crying – felt like i had just been > through a hold-up, a rape, and a storm – stress wise.
awful.. It happens to more "normal " people than you think though.. are you maybe overdoing it a bit fighting it? sounds corny I know but peaceful music ..a few aromatherapy candles and a safe undisturbed place can help a lot.. Sort of creating your own hiding place rather than pipe rooms.. just my maybe innaproriate 2c.. Im sure wiser and more experienced heads than mine on the board will have some advice for you.. Im just rooting for you and wish you the best.. Bob – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> tx a lot. > Squiggles
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Bob, I appreciate your kind words – it’s true letting go helps relieve the anxiety – i am exhausted from it and it in itself adds to the illness, strangely. music – good idea – don’t know about aromatic candles, they would have to compete with my husband toiletry LOL! will try music – yup ! Squiggles
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: major panic attacks today downtown – clonazepam : panic attack not like Xanax – feels like brain damage, : blood pressure feeling going up and down, tectonic : plates in the head, impending seizure… only one : thing I could do – take a 1.2 (o.5) Rivotril and a : Xanax – terrifying stuff – had to hid in pipe room of : building; : : 3 hours later I need another fix… my withdrawal : seems to have gotten worse last week, i see my doc. : tomorrow – I pray for instruction WHEN to take drugs, : WHAT kind of drugs and DOSE of drugs – maybe a referral. : : one thing is sure about psychiatric emergencies – : better to be stoned like a vegetable than flying like : out of control terrorized thing. : Hey Squiggles, Too bad about that mess. Hope things are better. Hopefully soon you can get that direction on the meds, but until then, do what you have to do. You must feel fatigued.
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> Hey Squiggles, > Too bad about that mess. Hope things are better. > Hopefully soon you can get that direction on the meds, but until then, do > what you have to do. You must feel fatigued.
thank you Mojo – it’s all so external – i don’t understand what is hsppening to me – my mouth is full of salt – at least my doc had me on 1.0 K before w/d which i did not adjust to like the Xaxax – maybe depression IS physical. thank you S
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->I came >> home crying – felt like i had just been >> through a hold-up, a rape, and a storm – stress wise. > Um…I have you blocked right now Squiggles but a few things get thru because > when people reply to you, your replies show up in my newsreader. It sounds to > me as if you have a quite severe anxiety disorder there. Have you ever > considered just giving in and going back on Klonopin? Klonopin is extremely > effective for panic disorder, as you well know. > Im just wondering if this would all be happening if you were on Klonopin again. > It does you no good to deny you have a problem with panic. Its nothing > shameful, it really isnt. > I feel sorry for you sometimes. > Eric
Thanks Eric, that is what I intend to suggest with my doc tomorrow, whom I think will in all probability agree – I am afraid of drugs – the Xanax w/d worked but the Rivotril, for some reason is getting worse – and the panic attack is ugly. You are sweet to write to me 
my doctor btw is Jewish LOL Squiggles
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> major panic attacks today downtown – clonazepam > panic attack not like Xanax – feels like brain damage, > blood pressure feeling going up and down, tectonic > plates in the head, impending seizure… only one > thing I could do – take a 1.2 (o.5) Rivotril and a > Xanax – terrifying stuff – had to hid in pipe room of > building; > So sorry..must be ghastly for you to go anywhere.. > I was well on my way to the Panic of all panic attacks friday morning. It > was awful..I felt like i was going to have a heart attack the way I was > going. > I was SAVED from my fate.. and having to take the benzo’s > by Eki suggestion about the alternate nostril breathing and my trying > it…and IT WORKED.. > did it a couple of times every hour and before long all my feelings of > panic that had been escalating went away, totally and completely. > Heres the site..on alternate nostril breathing.. > http://www.holisticonline.com/Yoga/hol_yoga_breathing-ex-nadisodh.htm. > And another…for victorious breathing exercises.. > http://www.holisticonline.com/Yoga/hol_yoga_breathing-ujjai.htm > Best thing about these is they can be done anywhere, anytime.. > Totally worked for me…. > ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Squiggles)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Very kind of you C’Ella – alternate nostril hmmm – will read that – i think that the clonazepam withdrawal is a unique epileptoid type – yeach! thank you for thinking of me. Squiggles
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> major panic attacks today downtown – clonazepam > panic attack not like Xanax – feels like brain damage, > blood pressure feeling going up and down, tectonic > plates in the head, impending seizure… only one > thing I could do – take a 1.2 (o.5) Rivotril and a > Xanax – terrifying stuff – had to hid in pipe room of > building; > 3 hours later I need another fix… my withdrawal > seems to have gotten worse last week, i see my doc. > tomorrow – I pray for instruction WHEN to take drugs, > WHAT kind of drugs and DOSE of drugs – maybe a referral. > one thing is sure about psychiatric emergencies – > better to be stoned like a vegetable than flying like > out of control terrorized thing. > Squiggles
That exactly what I say and feel about that. Why are you the only other person in Canada that agrees with me. I hope you are going to be ok, Squiggles. I’m like one of those terrified looking cats in the SPCA that gets ‘put down’ from being left in a terrorized state. After a while no one wants you. I rather be a stoned out until an answer was found. Bless you. Carrie
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> That exactly what I say and feel about that. Why are you the only other > person in Canada that agrees with me. I hope you are going to be ok, > Squiggles. I’m like one of those terrified looking cats in the SPCA that > gets ‘put down’ from being left in a terrorized state. After a while no one > wants you. I rather be a stoned out until an answer was found. Bless you. > Carrie
LOL – yeah I know the one you mean – the scruffy tabby with a calico tail, and rather large ears and polydactyl paws, with the black spot on the forehead saying "scratch me"; yeah I volunteered at the SPCA and I know the ones – the kind I adopt. – will feel you in on my doc appt/ later S
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